Disappointment!

It's another day now.Day of my birthday was past,Easy come easy goes.My 20th birthday is too much meaningless to me!I have no even one drop of memory can store it in my brain.I have doing nothing during the whole day.As usual,staying in my room and starring at my lappy scene through out the day.I can hear the fireworks were playing outside there but that's was the happiness came from those Deevapali's celebrator!They all had fun and joyful gathering.I am so much jealousy to them in that moment.I wish I am just like them right now,with happiness,joyful,warmness and memorable.Yeah,maybe..My cousin was right.When we grown up,we can see more and start to see the right side of human being.Especially the peoples around.Families is always the one we can depends on!Sometimes,yes!Old friends did give you warmness around you.I feel wanna get back to my old times.Even though,I have to keep going and face my reality that happening all around me.But when the time to flash back,I really need to get a lil rest!

Yesterday,my birthday..I realized something,maybe I wouldn't expected too much seems it will not happen on me!Is that right when someone said birthday will getting less and less important in our life.In fact,maybe she was right!I wont expect too much on my next 21th birthday!Certainly annoyance!Everything that I considerated yesterday was just correct!Enough!You really disappointed me!Not to said someone else and yet you just out of my expectation!Oh my,a good one though!Fine~It's over!I wont expect anything from you anymore!Pissed me off!I'm done with it!