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God always related to our life

Everyone have their own religion.So do I..but I'm not a Baptism Christian yet.I am a admire of God that will pray to HIM every night,attend to Church,pray God to the meals that HE provided for me and my families,Pray to HIM that I need solutions,Pray to him to protect us and HE always listen to my prayers.Thanks GOD for giving me opportunity to knows YOU.I'd started to attended Church since I'm a primary school girl.My mum is a Baptism Christian and yet,she always give a patience on herself to grows up us with trusted in GOD.My dad is not a Christian but a Buddhist.The good thing is he never force us to follow his religion.He did giving us to making our decision.So at last,we choose to praise on God.Until today,I would never regret on my own decision.Trust in God!

confusing days

Recently,my feeling is just maintaining in a very confusing situation.About what?Maybe is about her.Yeah,is a SHE!She is totally mess up my days recently.Even now,every time I'd seen her,my mind will automatically send me the impulse to tell that to AVOID her.As far as I can..I know,I shouldn't do that seem she didn't do anything wrong to me but my feeling is just telling me that she's give me a lot of troubles.She is not just common friend that we can actually tolerate with.Not really easy for me or either the rest of my friends.They might think this is not a very hard situation to make a solution.but it is hard for me to do so..She might think that I'm the one of her best friend but then I'm not.I'm seriously not!I don't want to go deeply into our friendship.I just want her to become my very lil common friend in-need.How am I suppose to tell her the truth between me and her?Will she understand what I'm trying to say?Will she change after that?Will she get hurt by me?Since she already faced this kind friendship problem before,I know her that SHE IS STILL THE SAME!Still the old her!She never changed even though you tell her the problem between each other.Seriously,I hate this!For some people think,she might still young to solve this kind of problem.But hey come on,she's already 19 years old!Is really old enough TO THINK ABOUT IT!!You're consider an adult now.Don't always think that you're young and no need to think and solve the conflict about your life.Do you even think about what's your problem seems everyone is trying to stay away from you?As a friend,I would just want to tell you the truth.I hope you can change this time.Not just change for temporary,is forever ever.Try to change,I am here to begging you.Maybe you would change after I tell you but I'm not mean to hurt you.I want you awake from all these problem you had and have facing now.I want you to 100% wake up to face the reality.Don't think like a child anymore and yet,you're an adult.An ordinary adult girl that know how to deal everything.I know it's hard for you to socialize with everyone but hey,this is the world you going to face.You're not living in a drama.You're to dramatic for everyone.Our life is not just simple as like you think like a drama.We lives in a real life which is full of love,toughness,conflict and complicate.

This is time for you to think about it.I don't want you to face this again in your future.I tell you the truth is for your own good.I want you to grow up with no regrets.I want to change you childish thinking,you innocent thinking,your dramatic actions which we all can noticed,your lies which can we found out easily.Your face impression which is I hate the most.Maybe that's you attitude and your personalities which I can't do any comment.But hey listen,No people will want to stay with you ever lasting with all your attitude and personalities.Stop pretending!Stop care about someone deeply without thinking anyone else.Stop to do something to attract people attention.Those attentions are too annoying for me.Stop acting like you are weak!Stop acting like you're weak foreigner which don't know this and that.Stop acting like you don't know how to tolerate Malaysian's foods.STOP ACTING!!All the movements and face impression are all an acting for me now.Maybe sometime you really want some attention from us but girl,this is not the way.You did all this will just freak me out!I don't like people acting in front of me.Attention?!Is that really need for you to just want someone to get attention on you?We don't need any attention!We need is just the true heart from each other.Treat each other with true feeling.Fairness will always given by our God.Try to social like what we're socialize now.Don't social in your own world.Break the boundaries upon you and us.You're not worse..Is just you don't know how to socialize.Not to force on only one person,put more care to the rest.Spend equally time with the rest.Try to talk the same conversation and try to reach their mind.Don't ever try to push away your own responsibility.If you did something wrong,just admit it.Don't try to push away to another.ACCEPT IT and CHANGE IT!

So,girl..this is all what I'm going to say to you.If you see my blog.I hope I'll not hurt you.I hope we still is a friend.I won't choose to ignore you.I will choose you to become a common friend of yours.Maybe our friendship is not closed like what we used to be.but don't worry,just give me a try and give you a time between you and me.Hope you understand it.And please,I don't like people come to my room without inform.Not that I don't want to see you face.Is just a need a time to think what I'm suppose to talk to you.I hate people come to my room and knock my door hardly just to forcibly ask me to open for you and answer what you're asking.stop doing that..Is quite annoying!Sorry to tell you all this..I hope you can change..People will always accept your changing.You're not too late to change,is just depends on you whether you want or not.God will be with you,friend=)

UPSET AND DISAPPOINTMENT!!!

I just got my 3rd semester final result-I'D ONLY GOT CGPA 3.51 for average!That's sucks!I can't believed what had I received today!Felt wanna cry out and screamed out loud!But lastly...I'm still calm myself down.Just hope I can do much much more better next time!God bless me.

My fate with Chinese New year..

Yesterday was a terrible day for me.Since the time I'd heard we not going to have Chinese New Year(CNY) holidays instead of 2 days Public Holidays,I was totally shocked at the first moment.I'd booked myself a return flight ticket to go back my hometown which is Miri,Sarawak to celebrate my CNY with my families.Other than that,we got another bad news as well at the same time.We gonna have our clinical posting at this end of the month.What the Hell!Why don't our nursing department make this sucks announcement earlier!Why they have to choose this moment to ''heart attack'' us!Okay,I know we are CHINESE!So,fuck off!SO WHAT!We are normal human being which have to celebrate our festival too just like what the others races will have!For those fucking Malays,or yeah..1 whole week holidays for ''Hari Raya''?!and for us only 2 days Public Holidays??You daughters of the bitches!!Why don't you all give us at least 3 days off instead of straight away send us to Clinical Posting!!We are only STUDENT NURSES!Not a officially Staff Nurses yet!We will know how to handle out time for sure!We will definitely do much more brilliant than the others!Why don't they trust us this time!For my condition,I am very upset seems I can't meet my families from June until now!I'd skipped my December breaks for going back Sarawak just because I thought I would have the chance to go back during end of this Jan for my CNY celebration.

On my conclusion,I'd decided to skip my 3 days(31 Jan-2 Feb) clinical posting!I'll just write a simple explanation letter with my prove flight tickets to my C.Is.This is all I've to do for myself just to get back to meet my families,cousins and friends.I've miss them so much more than what I can explain.Now,just hope everyone can pray hard for me so that I can pass through this with successful.Pray hard that I'm going to post at the nearest clinical hospital in Nilai.Everything just pass to GOD for make me a good decision.

Last but not least,a sincerely BIG THANKS from me to my lovely families,cousins and friends of course to supported me while I'm depressed yesterday!Hope they will have a very happy time during Chinese New Year!Hope they will have a wonderful posting time too!Will miss them so much if we separate soon...GOOD LUCK!!

A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011

Is a brand new year again,friends!

Let's us give a big clap to welcome Year 2011

The year we all waiting for..

Another new step will be stepping in..

Set new target,goals,dreams..

Make a new resolutions

Make a new life

Make a new ME

Let's us joy the year!

Welcoming brand new me,life and fate!

Wishing you all have a very HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011

Wishing all of us can have a happily ever life in Year 2011

Wishing us through this again to face the reality together

May GOD blessed everyone of us!

AMEN

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

25 December 2010

Birthday of Jesus

12th days of Christmas

Santa Claus

Gift Giving

Christmas Tree

Party Gathering

Turkey,Fruits cake

Decorations

Music & Carols

Wish all of you have A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS days ahead.

Other than that,let's us welcome NEW YEAR 2011