confusing days

Recently,my feeling is just maintaining in a very confusing situation.About what?Maybe is about her.Yeah,is a SHE!She is totally mess up my days recently.Even now,every time I'd seen her,my mind will automatically send me the impulse to tell that to AVOID her.As far as I can..I know,I shouldn't do that seem she didn't do anything wrong to me but my feeling is just telling me that she's give me a lot of troubles.She is not just common friend that we can actually tolerate with.Not really easy for me or either the rest of my friends.They might think this is not a very hard situation to make a solution.but it is hard for me to do so..She might think that I'm the one of her best friend but then I'm not.I'm seriously not!I don't want to go deeply into our friendship.I just want her to become my very lil common friend in-need.How am I suppose to tell her the truth between me and her?Will she understand what I'm trying to say?Will she change after that?Will she get hurt by me?Since she already faced this kind friendship problem before,I know her that SHE IS STILL THE SAME!Still the old her!She never changed even though you tell her the problem between each other.Seriously,I hate this!For some people think,she might still young to solve this kind of problem.But hey come on,she's already 19 years old!Is really old enough TO THINK ABOUT IT!!You're consider an adult now.Don't always think that you're young and no need to think and solve the conflict about your life.Do you even think about what's your problem seems everyone is trying to stay away from you?As a friend,I would just want to tell you the truth.I hope you can change this time.Not just change for temporary,is forever ever.Try to change,I am here to begging you.Maybe you would change after I tell you but I'm not mean to hurt you.I want you awake from all these problem you had and have facing now.I want you to 100% wake up to face the reality.Don't think like a child anymore and yet,you're an adult.An ordinary adult girl that know how to deal everything.I know it's hard for you to socialize with everyone but hey,this is the world you going to face.You're not living in a drama.You're to dramatic for everyone.Our life is not just simple as like you think like a drama.We lives in a real life which is full of love,toughness,conflict and complicate.

This is time for you to think about it.I don't want you to face this again in your future.I tell you the truth is for your own good.I want you to grow up with no regrets.I want to change you childish thinking,you innocent thinking,your dramatic actions which we all can noticed,your lies which can we found out easily.Your face impression which is I hate the most.Maybe that's you attitude and your personalities which I can't do any comment.But hey listen,No people will want to stay with you ever lasting with all your attitude and personalities.Stop pretending!Stop care about someone deeply without thinking anyone else.Stop to do something to attract people attention.Those attentions are too annoying for me.Stop acting like you are weak!Stop acting like you're weak foreigner which don't know this and that.Stop acting like you don't know how to tolerate Malaysian's foods.STOP ACTING!!All the movements and face impression are all an acting for me now.Maybe sometime you really want some attention from us but girl,this is not the way.You did all this will just freak me out!I don't like people acting in front of me.Attention?!Is that really need for you to just want someone to get attention on you?We don't need any attention!We need is just the true heart from each other.Treat each other with true feeling.Fairness will always given by our God.Try to social like what we're socialize now.Don't social in your own world.Break the boundaries upon you and us.You're not worse..Is just you don't know how to socialize.Not to force on only one person,put more care to the rest.Spend equally time with the rest.Try to talk the same conversation and try to reach their mind.Don't ever try to push away your own responsibility.If you did something wrong,just admit it.Don't try to push away to another.ACCEPT IT and CHANGE IT!

So,girl..this is all what I'm going to say to you.If you see my blog.I hope I'll not hurt you.I hope we still is a friend.I won't choose to ignore you.I will choose you to become a common friend of yours.Maybe our friendship is not closed like what we used to be.but don't worry,just give me a try and give you a time between you and me.Hope you understand it.And please,I don't like people come to my room without inform.Not that I don't want to see you face.Is just a need a time to think what I'm suppose to talk to you.I hate people come to my room and knock my door hardly just to forcibly ask me to open for you and answer what you're asking.stop doing that..Is quite annoying!Sorry to tell you all this..I hope you can change..People will always accept your changing.You're not too late to change,is just depends on you whether you want or not.God will be with you,friend=)